The joy of doing mindless games.
Aaahh, it’s weekend, no work brought home from my internship, no dissertation work this weekend, it’s time to continue with mindless games. I’m still working on the feelings that seem to tag themselves along with me while I’m playing these games. It used to be guilt, now it’s just a feeling of ridiculousness. I can’t believe the amount of time I’ve spent on playing these games. They’re addicting, very very addicting. I’ve lost sleeping hours on these games. Zynga, Inc. (the maker of many of these games) ought to have a support group available for people like me.
I wonder, though, why is it that I easily become addicted and spend an enourmously ridiculous amount of hours playing them? As soon as I get home, I go straight to the computer, turn it on, open facebook account, and hoala…I get busy. I have even sneaked time to check on my farm and cafe while at work. More recently, I added two fish tanks and another farm into my list of places to tend. Somebody save me!
If I have to take a guess, I think I know the answer to the question above. It’s because life has been very stressful since September this year. The responsibility and demand of internship work has been so high that often when I get home I can only do mindless stuff, such as vegetating in front of the TV, getting on the internet, or sleeping. If I have the energy, maybe I spend an hour or less exercising. What I miss are my hobbies, writing being one of them, but it has been very difficult to find time, energy, and ability to focus when I’m emotionally and mentally exhausted. Mental exhaustion, yes, that’s exactly how I feel when I get home from internship. The theme this week in internship, for example, was handling crisis. Gosh, I’m exhausted just thinking about it.
So, can you blame me for playing these games? I probably wouldn’t even put time and day in the past to play them. Didn’t even start until last month (October). Another interesting question to ask is perhaps I’m already experiencing an early stage of burnout because I start to lose interest in doing old hobbies. Thus, if you’re reading this blog, it means that I’m trying to bounce back to my old interests again. Let’s see if I can keep this up. 🙂